| no matter where i go, halo will ALWAYS be there |
[Mar. 16th, 2006|02:09 pm] |
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| |  amused | ] |
| [ | music |
| | I wish i was listening to HIM or...Uhhh....In Flames | ] |
Okay ummm...i'm okay for the moment. i'm at school. i finished my work. so now i'm writing this and emailing my mom. me and my mom are great, i love her. i don't know how people can't talk to their moms. but then again, there are some crappy moms. but i'm okay. i'm seated #6 on the team, just cause one girl quit. yeah, i'm still upset. i really got depressed over it last weekend. but...you know, so what sarah is seated above me. i still know she sucks.
ummm...me and walter got in a huge butt fight. just about lots of stuff. i hung up on him! AHHH!!! i never have hung up on someone cause i think it's really really rude, but i had to cause i was so mad. anyway we're okay now...i hope.
here is something. seriously. okay when you hate someone, sometimes you completely obsess over them. like you watch them and talk about them and stuff. does anyone else do that. i do that. i say it's because i want to keep my eye on them so i always know what they're up to, but i wonder if that's the truth. i can't think of any other reason. it's not like i like the girl i can't f-ing stand. but yeah, i guess i do want to make sure they ain't planning an evil plot against me. like tasha and the april fools thing...
AHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! What would I do if she played that horrible joke on me?!?!?!?!!?!?
I'm gonna go. I'll try to write more later and I'll try to write something interesting...
:) |
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| On the road again |
[Mar. 15th, 2006|02:28 pm] |
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| |  blah | ] |
I will write more later...hopefully. i got a lot to say. about a lot of stuff. see...or talk to ya'll soon |
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| need something to watch |
[Jan. 14th, 2006|04:23 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  calm | ] |
I will probably be without a computer tonight. We have a new desk and shit...have to put it together and stuff.
I'm okay today. A little bored. I'm getting ready to start on some homework. Woo hoo.
My whole english class laughed at that horrible picture of one of my "friends" I was talking about in my journal one day. I didn't show them the pic. Someone else did...
Ummm....
That's about it. Since I won't be on later I hope everyone has a great night. Be safe...ummm...
I LOVE YOU ALL |
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| Crying |
[Jan. 9th, 2006|08:05 am] |
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| |  depressed | ] |
I have cried all night and I want to do it now. I may check out of school cause I don't feel like being here. I'm such a freaking little girl. Now I'm crying cause I texted Walter and told him I loved him and he never texted back. How dumb is that? He may be busy...
I just feel like crying. I feel alone. |
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| I hate Sundays |
[Jan. 8th, 2006|11:11 am] |
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| | cheerful | ] |
I'm on the phone right now...so this should be fun. I can't multi-task.
I'm okay today. I can't see Walter for very long when he comes over later which makes me sad but it's okay. I saw him for a long time yesterday.
I can't wait for dinner tonight.
I'll write more later. Love ya'll |
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| Brisk |
[Jan. 6th, 2006|05:15 pm] |
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Trista texted me, not krysta. Trista just used Krysta's phone. lol.
But Krysta is mad at me cause I wouldn't talk to her at lunch. Oh well
Sarah went around all pissy the whole day. I'm so glad it's the weekend. I don't have to put up with anyone from school.
I love my new layout for this journal. It's cute. I have to go for now. I'll try to write more later. |
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| Have to hurry |
[Jan. 2nd, 2006|12:29 pm] |
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| | okay | ] |
Okay I'm going shopping again. So I'm in a hurry. So far today I'm okay. Hopefully my mom will let me get my pics today and I can start working on that myspace thing. I gotta go. Love everyone. I'll try to write more later! |
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| New Year's |
[Jan. 1st, 2006|03:40 pm] |
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| |  loved | ] |
NEW YEAR'S ROCKED!!!!!!
I LOVE WALTER AND HE IS MY LOVER!!!!!!!!
HE MEANS THE WORLD TO ME AND I WILL LOVE HIM FOREVER!!!!! |
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| Accounts |
[Dec. 29th, 2005|12:21 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  good | ] |
| [ | music |
| | HIM, "Wings Of A Butterfly" | ] |
Sarah is staying the night tonight so I am cleaning. Well sorta. I'm on a break right now. I'm sorta nervous about her staying cause I usually don't have people stay the night and I'm scared something will go wrong. But I hope it don't. Me and Sarah have never had a bad time when she stayed the night. So it should be okay.
I'm going to set her up a myspace account. I need people to get myspace. Walter wants me to get it and I want some friends on there. So if anyone has myspace and would like to be my friend tell me. I should have mine set up with pics and stuff by the end of next week. I'm going to take pics tonight and Saturday. Hopefully they'll be on there soon.
I have so much cleaning left to do. Yuck...I hate to clean. I hate to do any kind of work. I'm a real lazy person. I mean I do stuff...but I would like not to. lol.
Nothing else is going on...ummm. No that's it. I'll try to write more later.
Love to everyone. |
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| 8 months |
[Dec. 28th, 2005|10:17 pm] |
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| | blah | ] |
Me and Walter have been together for 8 months today.
Nothing good has happened to me today. I've done nothing interesting...
I saw Walter and that was about it. And that was good...
In a way I'm excited about going back to school next week cause then I'll have something to do. But also I'll have to listen to all the fucktards talk shit.
Forgive my cussing...
I'm getting ready to ask my dad about Walter staying the night on New Year's. Yeah...probably isn't going to work. But wish me luck.
I'll write more tomorrow.
Love everyone! |
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| Party Girl |
[Dec. 27th, 2005|03:36 pm] |
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| | okay | ] |
I talked to Krysta today and I feel sort of bad. We were talking about her going to a party. Like I don't party. I mean sure, maybe I smoke once in a while...and drink. But I don't party. But that's not me. I've only been to one party and that was almost a year ago for my friend Julia. And there was no drugs or alcohol there at all. It was just a friendly, fun party. Like we played pool and watched a movie...the guys played halo. I don't know. I feel bad in a way because I don't party. I'm not a wild child. But also I don't feel bad. I mean that's not me and it won't ever be me. I'd rather drink and smoke or whatever with just a couple people or Walter. Not a whole big group. I don't like to get messed up really. I don't mind if others do it. It's not like I hate Krysta cause she does it. It's just not my lifestyle. And I'm still an okay person. I got like 2 best friends...and a great boyfriend....I'm okay right?
Sure...
It's not like I'm boring.
Is it okay not to party and do party people dislike people who don't party? |
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| moron forgot his pictures... |
[Dec. 26th, 2005|08:31 pm] |
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Today has been okay. Walter came up and we spent a lot of time together. We fooled around...watched a movie...talked.
We talked about the girl and her comments. I asked if they talked on the phone. He said no. I told him that if he did talk to her on the phone than I can talk to Mac on the phone. He didn't like that cause he don't talk to her. I'm still gonna keep my eye on it but I think everything is okay.
After we fooled around (hope that's not too much info for you, hey it could be worse) we layed on my bed and talked about different things. One was Olivia and for the first time in this relationship I am convinced he's over her. That made me really happy.
So I think we're okay. 8 months on the 28th. Yay. I'm excited.
I'm gonna watch The Real World/Road Rules Challenge at 10:00. Probably talk to Jen on the phone before that. My dad is asleep, my mom is probably asleep too. My older brother Matt went out.
I'm a little bored.
Just a little... |
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| Never Mind |
[Dec. 25th, 2005|07:21 pm] |
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| |  blank | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Death Cab For Cutie, "Soul Meets Body" | ] |
I'm just gonna let that crap go. I just talked to Walt and he sounds fine. If you have no clue what I'm talking about I wrote it in the last entry. If there is something that needs to be found out, then I'll find it out. I don't have time to worry. |
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| Christmas Eve |
[Dec. 24th, 2005|04:12 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | cheerful | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Santa Claus Is Comin To Town | ] |
Well now that I'm over not seeing Walt for Christmas I can get into what I bought for people yesterday.
Mom-pajama's
dad-lazor level
matt-Ludacris CD
david-some action figures
krysta-photo album
walt's parents-ornament and white fudge pretzel things...
And that's it. Not a lot. I am getting Jen and Sarah a gift after Christmas. Walter gave me my gift. It's a HIM shirt. He's getting me some more stuff after Christmas. When he gets more money. We are going to Victoria's Secret. YAY!
I know a lot of my gifts that my parents got me. I know I got the HIM, Rise Against and AFI CD's. I got a HIM hoodie. 3 shirts from Pac Sun. A gift certificate to the mall, I'm using that at Hot Topic. Ummm...a diary. A squidward toy. lol. Ummm...a scarf and gloves. I think that's about it. May be more but I forgot them. Oh minutes for one of my cell phones. I have two, one for texting and one for calling.
Yeah, I'm still a little upset about Walter not being here but it's cool. I mean he'll be back Monday and then I'll most likely see him. And he needs to see his grandparents. He'll have fun...I hope. His grandparents are sick and Krysta told me this morning that thier Christmas would be depressing cause everyone is worried but has to pretend to be happy. I know that is how Walter feels but he won't say it. He usually doesn't talk about his feelings about his grandparents. But I'm okay. I'm gonna watch The Nightmare Before Christmas and It's A Wonderful Life while I'm wrapping gifts tonight.
You know, I feel pretty good right now.
Merry Christmas to everyone. Hope you have a safe and fun holiday!!!! |
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| Shopping for everyone |
[Dec. 23rd, 2005|09:29 am] |
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| | cheerful | ] |
I feel better now. Last night I watched Donnie Darko and wrote Walter a note saying that I loved him and needed him. I told him that I was sorry we fought. I'll give it to him today. Last night on the phone we were fine. The only thing he said was that it could have been better. Yeah I know it could have been too. He said sorry. And this morning on the phone we were fine. So everything is okay now.
I get to go shopping later. I'm a little excited. I'm going with my mom...I'm not sure if my dad will go. I sorta hope he does but it's cool if he don't. I like shopping with my mom. We may eat lunch out which would be nice.
As far as getting people stuff, I'm clueless. I don't know what to get them. I saw something at the mall in Roanoke I wanted to get him but we're not going to Roanoke. We're going to the mall in Christiansburg. He wants some tool thing...maybe I'll get him that. I'm getting Matt a CD, I just gotta find out which one he wants. I'm getting Daivd a toy, I just don't know what toy. And my mom I'm not sure. I wanted to go to Bath and Body Works and get her that bath crap...yuck. But it seems so ordinary. I've gotten her that stuff before. But I don't know what else I could get her cause I really don't want to get her that bath crap.
I don't get my grandparents or uncles anything. My mom takes care of that. I need to get Jen and Sarah something. I'm getting Jen a HIM poster and I need to get her something else. I'm gettin Sarah a movie and something else. You know, I always buy my friends like a lot of great stuff. I think I have to cut back this year. I should...save some money.
Have to get Walter's parents a ornament. May get Krysta something.
God, that's a lot of people. God, this is gonna be fun.
But anyway I guess I'm gonna go. Love everyone! |
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| Flash Light |
[Dec. 22nd, 2005|01:39 pm] |
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| |  hungry | ] |
If David don't stop grabbing the flash light I'm gonna scream.
So far today has been aggravating. My mom stayed home today but has only been out of her room once! My dad hasn't been out at all. Probably fighting...great.
David won't listen to me. I want Walter to come over but I don't want to ask. I'm gonna see him tomorrow so I guess I'll just wait.
I hear someone at the front door...maybe. No just my dog Ruby making noise. That was scary...
I haven't talked to anyone on the phone but Walter at like 6:40 this morning. I'm waiting for someone to call me. I finished this book I had to read for English. It's called The Awakening.
I really liked it. Better than that Old man and the sea crap.
No offense to anyone if you liked that book. We took a test on it the last day of school and I failed it. I know I failed. I hated that book and to be honest I didn't get it.
I'll write more later. Pray Walter will want to come over. |
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| Guess What? I LOVE WALTER MORE! |
[Dec. 21st, 2005|08:06 pm] |
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| |  worried | ] |
Okay...bad situation came up tonight. Earlier I was on Walter's myspace and I saw a comment that was from a girl. It said:
Guess Who Loves Walter?
I do. Hehe
Guess What???? I LOVE HIM MORE! I don't know, it was awkward for me. At first I was like, "Okay...this is bad." And I admit...I got a little mad. But you can't blame me. I mean I had just seen it and was shocked. So I found out the chick had a boyfriend and found out that Walter hasen't commented to her so I calmed down. I never thought he was doing anything but like I just thought maybe they were close buds and she was wanting more. I guess another thing was Mac wrote on one of my shirts, "Mac is a sexy beast" and Walter didn't really like it. He wasn't mad at me...but it just was awkward for him. And he felt like he should be the only one writing on my shirts. lol. So seeing this was like, "Well he's gonna get mad over a shirt...I can get mad over this."
So he called and came over. I was nervous as hell to ask him anything. So I ended up being quiet and not looking at him when he talked to me. I knew that if I talked to him I would feel bad. So Walter figured something was wrong and made me tell him. And I did. Well I wrote it down, cause I felt stupid for it. I knew it wasn't anything but still...for some reason it upset me. He didn't even know the comment was there! He said sorry, also said he couldn't help what others did.
Then he asked me if I wanted him to erase it.
I don't want to get to the point where we have to tell eachother what to do. But he's going to erase it. He knows that will make me happy. And it will. I'm not going to lie.
But he told me that when his band makes it that there may be girls screaming at his shows saying they love him.
Competition...but I can handle that. As long as I'm the girl he's coming home to.
So no reason to worry right? I mean so what if girls tell him they love him when he's famous?
I mean it won't mean anything right?
Why am I doomed to live this life of worrying every damn day? |
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| This is why I'm not nice |
[Dec. 20th, 2005|06:38 pm] |
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| |  cold | ] |
Okay...okay. I tried today to be nice and cheery and it backfired. I fell flat on my ass today. When I got off the bus I slid on the ice in my driveway and fell. No that has nothing to do with me being nice...but maybe it does. In a weird way. I've never fell before in my driveway when I was mean and pessimistic...but I fall the day I'm nice. No more being nice. lol.
Lunch today was a nightmare! My friend Jen's shirt slipped down and stupid butt Josh Byrd said something to her about it. But he was totally rude about it. Jen was almost crying. I hate it. Josh can be a jerk. He tells Sarah that her boyfriend is too old and her sister is a lesbian, he tells people behind my back Walter is too old and is a MANSON FREAK! And then he does this. I can't see why Ashley doesn't see past him. Like I know they've been together for like 2 years but damn. He's cheated on her with her ex best bud for like a year and a half now. If Walter was ever mean to people like that then there would be no me and Walter. Same with my friend Sarah...if her boy was an ass than she'd end it with him. Who wouldn't? Why are you going to date a jerk like that? I mean he talks crap and then pretends to be your best bud...he cheats on his girlfriend... What an ass.
Singing in French wasn't bad. Singing in front of Aaron was miserable. I hope he didn't look at me.
I guess I'm gonna go for now. I may write more later. I'm staying up for a while tonight. |
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| Two days |
[Dec. 19th, 2005|07:09 pm] |
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| | blah | ] |
DAMN I'M DUMB! I only go to school two days this week. Hell! That's friggin great.
I didn't present my project today. In January. Good thing...this morning I hole punched the papers wrong. The holes were on the opposite side of the page. I bet I seem really stupid now. lol.
My friend Mac pissed me off today. Every day at lunch he picks with me and will like yell at me. I just snapped. I hate having attention...like I wish sometimes no one would acknowledge me but like 2 people. And when he yells at me everyone always looks. Even if he's picking...I hate it. He never does it to Sarah or Jen. Just me. Me and him are okay now but I don't know...i hope he quits.
Walter's Christmas present came today. YAY!
We sing tomorrow in french. FOR AARON'S CLASS! I hate that. Also for Krysta's, Mac's, and Sarah G's class. But come on...Aaron!!!! WHY ME?
I guess the only thing good about today was I got Walt's present. Yeah...that's it. I have to go for now. I'll write more tomorrow. Love everyone- |
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| Chores |
[Dec. 18th, 2005|02:35 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | bored | ] |
I am so bored. I am so friggin bored. God...I am bored
Yeah...
Tomorrow I get to present my project to the bankers. I wonder how bad that will go. My guess is pretty bad. But no one in there really knows what they're doing so at least I'm not alone. Some people didn't even finish the damn thing.
Walter is at his friend Richard's wedding. He may see me when it's over. I hope so, I am so bored today.
I still need to go shopping. Maybe I'll do that Friday. The snow they were calling for tonight is no more. I guess that's good. I just thought of something. My friend Sarah didn't do her project. And she was supposted to present hers right before me. So now I'm first out of our little group of friends. My group being: Me, Sarah and Jen.
Great. I get to talk to those scary bankers first. Well...before my friends. Great.
Life sucks right now...sorta. Could be worse. |
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